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Age 1-6: told that 1 of her eggs became infected, & smelled up whole room when being born & only told this 2 years ago(maybe my twin who knows), got my leg burned trying to get teapot off stove & fainting. Walking up stairs & falling thinking there is railing,maybe lost a rib there,dad whooped my brother for not looking out .stay a 1-3 months in hospital because of chernobyl doing tests, fun for me i got to meet others there, unaware what was going on. Got bike & trying till i got it down, fell in bush, but got it!. i dont remember too much from my siblings besides walking to a waterfall very far away. playing chalk arrow game to clues find others but i was left behind because i could not bike up hill but i think i went off to woods & fell & got hand worts here & went back home. Took 6-7 years to find out what to do about worts, heavy biting worked..cried & terrified by super fast moving swings at a carnival. bathing with my cousin picking up poop with a pan. Talked into by bro to take a dump on my sister when she was sleeping. my bro holding my hand as my other bro plays some overage things on vcr from dads stuff. & then me later putting tape in the tape at my age to see rest, they maybe dont even know i did that. also my 2 brothers fell off roof & 1 with my uncle made him pierce his skull(hes very stiff person to talk to & wont remember what you did for him in his later years so theres no points in reputation with him. another neighbor next door to play a Tape game system, but my dd said he passed away from the chernobyl smog. heard later my bro's were playing mortal kombat in a arcade but never seen it else there was also another neighbor we went to play the game contra. snuck to pea farm with a friend. Was asked to take care of a turtle but after a few hours i overfed it ,got bored & left, not sure if i did a good job there, dont remember how long i was suppose to wait.many life lessons, faintly remember being in a broken building & being stuck on 2nd floor & while a flood around passing thru with a friend. Long wedding walks & parties, & more family with cows & my cousin who lived next door, whilst their cat births kittens in our bed. was told to send a neighbor a message, they farmed poop, instead of going the front way, went back way where all the poop is & in the center was a guard dog. as a dummy i walked on wooden siding holding poop but dog takes me down on my chest. We just stare, & it backs away & i go crying home,only 3rd time i faced death already. Got to kindergarten(did not finish & we flew to America since we won some lottery, was a hole in floor on plane, told my mom ,tell me when we are about to go down & slept, to her it meant crash(funny,did not know how to say, to land, yet.

Age 7-8: I look at the prior & it must have been harsh way back when with bears/boars/cougars/snakes, & how they must have lived.sheesh, yes i learned to bike but my family took some damage, my mom did not want to sell the house, & bought furniture, which are 2 things she went against on my dad. only shows i know in Poland were the Smurfs, Bollek i Lollek,Asterix & 2 movie scenes of a bridge with maggots down below, & humans trying to survive very large creatures & dinosaurs. Back to America, our family started living together in a apartment with our cousins family who was next door also moved here. my dad was already here for i think 10-15 years working. maybe thats the secret of life of getting a house in America:living with another family nearby & toiling 20 years & another 10 years after to pay mortgage off, wouldnt say it ends there. In turn she let a family take a care of old house, & they did not do so & left abandoned instead still paying for it overseas to this day. Had a hamster & guinea pig, a cat, another orange cat & strays to take our time, me thinking still the animals a ,good, still when trying to see what happens what a cat does with a hamster. Wounded & fell into the vents & a Guinea Pig will give a mean bite if you play too roughly. always hanged with my cousin, went to 3 carnivals, circle firefighter 1, flying kite 1(terrified of heights but finally went & tried it on 3rd time), got a goldfish. Got gameboy from other cousins dad(pierced my bros skull one). we also had a windows 95 computer(playing doom, 1 game that if you ended a foe you become them but not sure on the name yet very unique, Sega Genesis(sonic Asterix & super nintendo. Played my Pokemon Red/Mario/Wario games. Donkey Kong & Megaman X were a terrific time. Bout of jealousy with my cousin, as i thought it was the girl i liked but really was not when i got closer.I got incredibly angered, left before i ended up punching him. At this time dad became drunk & had to squeeze through the door. Our cousins family & us went living across the street for a bit, leaving my dad over there. girl i liked? well im braindead & forgot which door she lived here & forgot to ask,that makes 2 i liked dissapeared from my life, one in Poland,poof memory gone,You forgot to ask dummy, Mom reconciled somehow with dad?? & we got a mortgaged house.Cried not wanted to leave home to 1st day of new school.

Age 9-10: Not sure how we were able to get other game systems like the Jaguar,3DO, ps1, another computer, ps2, my cousin got the xbox & like one pc/one laptop in recent times & only 2 ps5 through the 30 years we been here. but i guess there was some pay monthly plan thing back that i saw in old magazines so that must have been it or rentals, because we never had these things all together, it was always like one after the other. but you dont need these things nowadays,waste of space just get a flashdrive & emulators, all those systems on one single drive & your good, plenty good enough maybe a bug or 2 with graphics at most. I was pretty shy but showing my written stories to people helped also in highschool, playing tag really helped its after elementary that send everyone into the 4 corners of the earth, which did not help much for me, had a chance. in 6th grade with my 6 friend group, i decided to get a black friend.. but ended kinda bullying me instead in courtyard we were pushing each other away, so i did the one thing that even i didnt know how i did it to this day.so with my quick thinking, i kneed myself in the forehead. I said ,.I dont know how i did that, he bust out laughing.. As for coming over to my house thinking its going to normal for the 1st time. it was not long till he was saying stuff like ,im the lord of the evil hand, & chokes me for a bit haha, alright im going to give you a few chances here. though i still got him back sometime later by putting him in a back grapple for 15 minutes. let go but he still kicked me with his shoe in the head, not saying we did this all the time we did watch anime/game & had fun in between but sometimes we had this mutual competition.he thinks i cant 1 up him though its getting to this seething jealously a bit so i took a step back on that now, no point.

Age 11-12: elementary had these fun carnival games, with tickets, water balloon & toss 1 once & take a step back was my favorite, we were allowed to run around as much as we wanted through all the rooms or go outside for other events, hit the target to drown your gym teacher or inflatable slides, once every year. though teachers there used to be nice, they turned out to be pretty snobby as time went on, i helped a carnival teacher once for volunteering to move loads of chairs in the morning & back to praise me to my teacher, but teacher laughed it off saying , what him?? no way, she retorted back, at least someone had my back. I had my friends one moved way down south, but i dont think i coped with that correctly. then another as a group walking while i was on bike, fell and hit car light with his knee breaking it, & everyone dashed for it. at this time i just went home, but my friend blamed it on me. that friend was also told to me that he was a in a car crash. so always ended up doing bad decisions pretty frequently, me & dad go to him to say where he lived & left. sept 2001 one comes along, and bring about tvs into the room to see it for ourselves on how a group just attacked america,well as a fellow dummy i thought more about how fun it would be to be there running away from the dust cloud, but next day rolled around & they already cleaned it up to surface level? how is that possible i thought, where are all the steel beams at? There is absolutely no way they could do that in 24 hours, no way i thought.Now mind you on yt i did see one video near my 30s a phrase from it stuck with me, these buildings were constructed like a jigsaw puzzle steel panels & if one fell out, it all came undone, like some weird mayan destructive temple so it might have been that too. i stopped playing tag & just sat under the wooden ramps(had nails, kinda dangerous for little ones to be under here but they fixed it up later with a new building, i just watched my friends from there. though kinda drifting slowly away, but i was there to think of some way of getting round this high school thing, but im just too dumb & young, & wasted my time there overthinking anyway.

13-14: We busted down walls & put up new ones, i fell down the steps once, closed my eyes, & somehow was standing up when i opened them, then went to the other room & cried, my bro threw a dart into his hand, fixed up the floors, my brothers friends would come by from almost every day 2-6 of them would be there we would play a soccer game a lot, & fighting games.but after a while for that, my dad chased them off one by one. after watching mortal kombat 1, my bro called himself Shadowchaser & i took on Johhny Cage's name, but in Mortal Kombat 2, intro scene they break his back already, haha wow i thought I need to give myself a different name now & that was Demonslayer.. In highschool my sister recommended me to, we did not play tag, we played cards at least the two years than i just did not really spark with anyone, classes were slumped just awful & uneventful from there.. It was not always sunny, in between weeks at my cousins he was playing basketball so i had the home to myself, but sometimes his dad would come by drunk. pummel him or his mother (is why he would rather just play basketball & not show up) so the dad ends up messing up her ribs, i dont see what i could do, his body is made of stone(me & my cousin could not even lift his arm off the ground for godsake. terrifying, they sure love to drink in construction, unknowing of what happens when they black out 4-5 hours later on some rampage. if i were gotten attacked even once, i probably would not be writing here for you. not too mention i went up stairs once when i got mad(forgot the reason why) at my mother, i was pumping stress into my heart as much as i could, she came to check on me , i stopped doing that altogether.

15-16 suprised by what my cousins mom did to him after he got her ribs, she just dragged him through the stone steps when he was drunk, & you can say she got him back, being that hard his ribs or whatever pummeling, can understand this whole cancer thing, & ending up in our house, but he did not go off like at their house at our house, which still confused me. it was all just drink & nap, once he went straight down with his head onto the kitchen floor from the chair, over the years he had a hardtime working, & he was drinking heavily on his own, know what i just wrote i would not drink, he even asked my dad how he was able to quit. but sometimes people need to see ghosts, for me i came down at about 2-3 am, telling my dad you need to stop drinking or your going to lose your family, he did it, but for some reason these things had a delay of '4 months later, they wont remember ,you, for those words either, just some ghost or angel, sigh. then my cousins dad wanted the same. he wanted out too. he went to the the church & stated he was going to stop drinking for a year, he had a little relapse but stuck to it, i did not even know he could change that much. he gotten skinnier, nerdier with the glasses even, but everytime i do something my family just wants to undo it & convince me to go back(because i was living with them for quite a while. I did this a few times, last time i did that in my 20's. fell into a heavy depression because well my wisdom tooth started cutting up my cheek, & i let that happen for 7/8 months it finally broke on my cheek till i said, alright, im just going to break it myself, with a finger push for the other one, can kinda understand why they want to join some defence force at this age, just letting things happen like that for far too long is crazy enough

Age 17-18 year 2006 my dad wanted to redo garage take it down & make a new one for a new van he just bought, & pretty much my worst year i ever lived, we were a quarter left to finish it, i could not do it anymore.i just went to my room , uncaring at all. the beams are just so heavy. i thought the old garage was fine,the newer one had to be also bigger than the rest & just doing it was going through a lot, my geometry teacher berating me(later he got health problems & someone finally punched him, my Trigonemetry teacher also not that great, student next to me said, why do you even come here, you can go i will not stop you teacher said in agreement but i felt like they would just call security & stayed in the back. A friend getting into a car crash, then me borrowing 20 to another so he can go to the concert being funny i said 'in turn for friendship, turned to 'something happened there at the concert & now he is taking it out at me(he is also shorter than me) by punching my back in class. or yea he took a belt & whipped me at the biology class once, teacher or anyone else did nothing, i cried. I was a wreck, i went to a ou/tr/each building, & well i was not hearing right , i did not want to hear anymore, & just said yes to everything. went home got my dads credit /health cards,& basically volunteered to hospital nutjob section.

Age 18: Your too young to be in here, they said. putting me in a room with a roommate that i can only explain as , a blob of a small maimed?? body & contorted in a strange way i was not sure what i was looking at, couldnt sleep much with these thin bed sheets, & day came, i never went out, too long waiting there, someone came & said i cant always keep staying in the room, & went out to the open seated area, sat down & some guy later joined me next to me & said , hey, whats your name?, i responded, & as soon as i did,he started to stroke next to me through his pants, he was not there the next day nor was the maimed person in my room, real suspicious the more i thought about it, but felt maybe this was connected somehow,people where there even 1 employee, the strange people there i saw that claimed they can hear car noises outside , i did not hear anything, or two women with their bazingas inflated 3.5 feet wide, as if it was filled with air or something, i was so confused. 3 days my mom came to visit with a sandwich when i bit into, i cried. not that because its warm home, its because ill be brought home, i wanted to live somewhere else already, I was there for almost 2 weeks, got something to read, family came 4 days later, & then suprisingly my black friend too with my mom,hospital had a living room meeting to create something, i made a space shuttle, then came back next time it was , crumpled up, we all should know why, went to the uppers there later about my results here, his secrectary said that was homeless and i slammed my arms against the table saying , who told you that?, which again my fault because ,i did not want to hear, anymore. but anyway my dad would have gone livid on this place if he heard about the guy sitting next to me, 3 days later i get released. did i mention there was another young guy while waiting for the things for us to take. He put his side of his face slowly on this young ladys pants behind, but im the one who gets dischosis & anti depressants to take.. wonder if that was the other guys son, yeah whatever bud. systems a joke

19-21: Years started to go much faster, 3 years went by without a job interview, 40 something applications & it did not seem like it was doing anything, was going to college, first year was sorta ok, but after that, i swapped my degree 3 times, & had enough of it ,its just downhill with a math teacher who pretty much broke down after he helicoptered his kin to his mother who passed away, & revived her just to see her little ones one last time, she told him to not bring her back again, & past away. made us grade everything ourselves,his shoes also tattered, & another writer teacher who just red mark my whole paper, would not survive this much & accounting was still a big book topic & confusing, wondering why the world is like this, i quit college, asked my dad to help me start a computer seller company, nope, so i ended up taking a job stock inventory retailer from a friend & after 2nd job training for a oncall routing delivery helper near the last two weeks of my retail job i quit that too? why? they were adding new lighting, & started feeling miserable even my eyes blurred for 15-20 minutes thinking i was becoming blind & one of the screen in my other jobs training, was literally seeing the text when i turned away, i never ever seen text when turning away from a crt before, but it was only that one monitor, recommended my friend delivery job(did not hear anything from him but it was around the time i quit so maybe just stopped him from coming in,said he does not remember that far back, i ended up quitting both jobs, because well, are they doing this on purpose? they dont test these lights? anyway my dad end up also berated my black friend as he thinks i did not want to be with him anymore or something, told him off at the door, & no told me it happened till my dad said it later, agh was wondering why he stopped coming, i just needed a break not all stuff, dad. he did come back till 25 once for a bday, trying to show him something but ended up cutting my skin line by my thumb& saying & looked under it ' cool i can see under my skin, & quickly ran to the bathroom for a bandaid, were good & stay in touch.

22-26: Brother got a new girlfriend seemed kind of nice, but me & my brother fell off for 8 years & he ended up meeting my sister to her & was the worst mistake of he made, he doesnt know your not suppose to just meet someone who already went through divorce & will speak to her like some mother figure because thats all she got & will just speed up the process of divorce. shes not a good fit to be anyones motherfigure. so yea. these might not be my experiences but im getting pretty good at whats just not right. at 24 i started grinding my teeth for close to a year, and well 7 years later your teeth will start kind of fusing but not really, they get hollow & hit against your cheeks, one tooth broke(tried to push it back in but ok guess that does not work that easily. so had enough & finger push the fused teeth, was afraid it was connected to my jaw, but nope worked out in those later years. at 25 i got my middle two crown teeth done, those broke vertically in elementary cafetaria eating a apple trying to give it the biggest bite i could, awful scene of me getting stuck to it & removing it, also had lockjaw & went to the nurse till she kept giving me small wood planks in my mouth, higher & higher till it stopped locking my jaw, whew. i did not eat with my crown teeth for 3 years in the center, was afraid it would break as they chiseled it down to such a small tooth & concreted it, my vertical broken teeth were stronger than this, just a heads up, but thats 17 years of them being brokem. at 26 i was so tired of toothaches, i already wanted to just get rid of them all mentality like my dad way back then. went to a dentist to get rid of of a toothache, in turn he also ended up breaking the good one next to it. i said to myself ,whats the point of any of this, if its one thing it becomes the other. so the next time i get a toothache i said was going to set myself up to learning this on my own, dont care how many hours it takes, im going to do it.

27-31: When I did get that toothache i went to lay there doing some high & low or short or long breaths while my mouth is closed untill i understood what it was what made a ache ' ache. there was a easier version of this i found out later just 8 years later, thinking all the kinks of it were worked out but they were not,it was the same time but i had to do much less to get it to work, & that was when i figure out how headaches go away & took a try that but the timing was the same

31-34: i worked in retail twice, helped with my mom when i was under 18 cleaning too in various buildings, even at night a few times,worked cleaning 7 buildings at a university, best office of the year to work for, factories, banks, art studio, company headquarters i got to buff the floor got good remarks on it,i moved away from my mom leaving her with my sister, who got pregnant & thought she was some better choice than me so i let them do it, but just ended up saying her behind was too cold & left her mom there paying full on her own after just one year. she could have just got the second outside door & asked the contractors next door for some help & saved herself 50 big ones over the course of 7 years of renting but nooo, im the bad one. they give tarp for nut job section that cost 20 big ones, but that was accepted by his insurance(i found the paper just now at 37, whew. if he did have to pay i would think we would have lost the house by now. worked in downtown mall, airport(fun till they start remodeling all the bathrooms one by one making them shinier & white,& too bright just like that time in retail & delivery job, i liked the greasier looking bathrooms. i ended up noticing i did not have to mop much because the light would just sizzle away the water from the 7 lights above it in about a minute it would be gone, made my job easier when it overflowed,even an idiot could do this job now, o & i dont like the sensors much, there is a chance for some reason for the range to double & suddenly the door just swinging would activate & keep flooding if its clogged behind your back whenever someone went into the stall..

35-37: other things i did, um i wanted to get my arms bigger so i started to lean into my elbows while watching shows & did this for about a year + few months straight, they did get bigger(9 months would have been enough . did i get stronger? um, no. lol. now i would probably prefer my skiny arms back thank you very much haha, harder to shave for one, & to feed myself to be honest. would be easier to have 2 bulky armed people to feed/shave themselves at this point ..in the salon, salon person: hey! i need to help you with that, not you each other, stop!.. haha, second i think its the size density of your ribs/and/or how many you have left will tell you how strong you are

38: Got a orange cat, called it, strimey, even though its a she

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